Isn't it funny how the most important things in life (assuming you have the minimal intellectual requirements for being successful) just can't be figured out?
How do you motivate yourself?
Honestly, I really love being abroad and seeing new places. I've liked being abroad so far. But I've also felt lonely and unmotivated. I'm feeling very lonely right now. The feeling of being very alone and being acutely misunderstood is appearing more frequently. And I'm starting to miss being home. My paranoia doesn't help and it is compounded by the fact that in this country people are fairly xenophobic. I've wondered whether they really don't like foreigners... and I think they don't, but I'm still trying to give them the benefit of the doubt. When people shake their heads and make frustrated sounds it doesn't bother me so much if they're strangers. It's kind of freeing to know that people have already judged you to be an idiot and you don't have to confirm high expectations. But I also miss the friendships and I think I may have taken many people for granted back home
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