Set aside hate

Need to set aside the hate.

The type I'm facing is particularly pernicious. God, it's just this thing which someone that used to be very close to me said. What I said to her might have been offensive as well... but I was holding myself back and I couldn't help it! I had to say something. I felt obligated to as a decent human being. Really, I wasn't trying to be offensive.

But she might not have realized how much that affected me. Yeah, it was a few months later when the feeling really hit me. But now it feels as if I can't do anything anymore. My mind is completely preoccupied with this thing... the destruction of my identity. I feel ashamed of my family and where I came from. I feel ashamed about the people that I love and the people who loved me. I feel ashamed of myself. I have no idea what is good/bad anymore... and it's not like someone needs to show me what's right and what's wrong, it's just that so many things I thought were right turned out to be wrong. i don't know where to go or what to do. and i feel certain people hate me and they are just hiding the fact from me.

yeah, i suppose i'm in kind of a dark place